Breakups : My life Part 1

Dealing with a breakup is hard....so hard. I had to deal with a breakup twice with the same person, and that was very interesting. The first time we broke up, it was mainly because we argued a lot, and he lied to me so many times.  I got to a point where  I didn't trust him at all, and the things he did made me feel so much anger towards him constantly. We would argue so much and  I found myself looking for reasons to get mad at him, just to get back at him for the things he had done to me.

When we first dated he had lied to me about so many things in his life. I was a Junior in high school, and we went to different schools but met through a volunteering program. He started telling me how he was on the football team, that he was from new York, and that he slept with a numerous number of girls (which btw was NOT attractive).

These little things that he told me, were so simple that at the time I didn't know he was lying. Then a couple months after we were talking, he told me that he had a brain tumor. I didn't know what to think of this at the time because 1)who would lie about something like that and 2) if I were to accuse him of lying and he was telling the truth, that would look terrible on my part. So for our whole relationship I was thinking that this was true (it still disgust me).  The list of things he lied about was endless.

I remember one time that my grandpa had gotten in a car accident, and I was so hurt sad and scared for my grandpa. I really had trusted this boy at the time so I told him what happened. He claimed that he was in the hospital at the time but that he was going to ask his nurse if my grandpa was staying at the same hospital. He LIED straight to my face, when I was most vulnerable. I don't understand how anyone could do that.Yes, I bet your wondering why I would be stupid enough to stay with him, but  I didn't find out that this was all a lie until the day after we broke up. Definetely not my favorite memory.

Dealing with the Breakup:  Well when I was having to deal with this breakup, it was difficult because someone that I had loved and cared for so much,  someone I had told everything to, someone I thought  I could trust had lied to me about everything. Our whole relationship was a lie. At first I pretended as if it never happened. The first 2 weeks of being broken up I basically talked to other guys and didn't think about it at all. Then one day it decided to hit me...hard.

I realized that this guy was not in my life anymore. Although it was a good thing that we weren't together anymore, it was so crazy to think about what all has happened. I have depression, it runs in my family, so dealing with something like this hit me 10 times harder then I thought it would. I would cry a lot at night because I didn't understand. I didn't understand how someone who claimed to love me so much could lie to me about everything, call me names and treat me so negatively.

Then one day it got better. I started to realize that I was going to be okay. But then I got to a point where I  didn't just want to be "okay"... I wanted to be happy again. I saw my ex boyfriend 8 months later walking downtown randomly and I considered this a "sign" that we had unfinished business. I contacted his mother and set up a time to meet up with him and talking. Mind you that for 8 months he never tried to contact me after we broke up.

We met up and I started to have feelings for him again. Or at least I thought  I did.

Let me know if you guys want to know the rest. Part 2 will be up soon.

How to deal with a breakup : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=63nuqDNom5Q