This is something a little new, something I have never done before. So I keep a journal at home that I write in about things going on in my life. I thought that it would help me not only get through my struggles in life, but also help me remember many of the good things in my life. I want to share that part of my life with the world because I have nothing to hide, and also I really encourage other people to get a journal. It not only is a good stress reliever, but when you are older, you can go back and read all of the interesting things in your life, and see how your thinking maybe has changed. And if your like me and struggling with something like depression, it is a good way to get your sadness or anger out and keep you from doing regrettable things. If you have anxiety, panic attacks, or are just perfectly fine, journaling is helpful for anyone. So I don't know how long I will be doing this for, but I want to try this out and see how it goes.
6/13/13
Dear Journal,
Today was my first "solo" day hosting at Applebee's and let me just say it was EXTREAMLY busy!! Honestly though I liked it that way because it keeps my mind off of other things and I can really just focus on work. Everyone was very encouraging though and made me feel confident in my work which was such an amazing feeling. I'm so excited that I don't have to work tomorrow though because tomorrow is my graduation!! I can't believe how fast school went by and I am so happy that high school is over. I'm ready to start this new chapter in my life. So on a not so positive note, I have to work at Menchies tonight wahh ): Its never a good feeling to know that people are talking about me negatively. I'm NOT going to let it get to me though. I deserve better and I'm pretty sure tonight is my last night so that makes me happy. I'm just going to stick it out and then move on. So randy has been on my mind A LOT since I've moved back to Olympia. Its insane how connected I've felt to him since I've been here. I really want him to call me so we can talk, and I mean really talk.... I want me and him to work thins out like we should have in the beginning. I still feel something for him and I really hope he does for me. I don't even know if I really want to get back together with him, but I will never know until we talk. He graduated on Saturday the 8th, and today is the 13th and he still hasn't called so Idk what that really means. I'm still waiting though. The universe has given me everything I've asked for, and this is something I want very badly so I won't give up. "I won't give up...on...us" hahaha the Jason Mraz song doesn't lie lol (: Me and randy had such an interesting history, he was my first love, and my first in many other things... heh. So I know that whatever has happened since I moved back was MEANT to happen. Everything happens for a reason. Alright well I'm gunna take a break before I go to work. Thanks for listening.
Sadie Brooke
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