Learning to accept and love

My life has been such a journey for only being eighteen years old.  I feel that I have been through a bucket full of obstacles and I am still trying to figure out how I am still alive and well. But that's the beauty of it, you can fall as many times as you get pushed, but you can also stand back up right after. Its crazy to think of how much I have made it through, and the idea makes me smile.It's important to look at the brightest side of things, especially when things are tough. Every day is a learning experience, and  I just wanted to touch light on the things that I have recently learned.

1) First and foremost, you need to take care of yourself

Many times I would try to jump into relationships, do things for others, and take on big tasks when I wasn't mentally or physically prepared to do so. For example, my junior year of high school I was badly depressed and couldn't think straight or make conscious decisions that would benefit me. Around that same time I decided to jump into a relationship with this guy, and it was a very terrible idea. the relationship was full of fighting, sadness, anger, and pain. I wasn't mentally ready for a relationship. Sometimes you have to work on yourself and take care of yourself before you do anything else. That way you are the best you can be and in a good place to achieve or take on the things that life has thrusted upon you.

2) With every negative, there's a positive

Dwelling on all the bad things in life was something I used to be so good at. I could always find something wrong with a situation, something negative about what was going on, yet I never asked myself "Is there a positive?". Its extremely important to try to find the positive side of every situation or task that you are enduring in life. you can do it, I promise there is something good. And if you can't think of something good, I know in the future you will because everything in life is a lesson and you can learn from whatever has happened.

3)Don't let others determine how you feel

Someone called you a name, talked behind your back, treated you with such disrespect. So why would you want to give them any power to shape the way you think or feel about yourself? Don't let anyone impact your life in a negative way. You are so much stronger and better then that. People can be cruel and mean, but don't give their opinion about you that much power. At the end of the day they may be dealing with some demons themselves.

These are just a few things that I have been learning recently in my life that have greatly impacted my though process. I hope that it helps someone that is maybe a little lost or down lately. It gets better; you and I are living proof of that. Your breathing, healthy, able to read something on the internet, you have so much ahead of you in life. No matter what happens, remember how strong you are. Look back on your life, look at all you've accomplished. YES making it through a tough situation is an acoomplishment. Wipe those tears, let it go, and stay strong.

love you all, Muah!

Pretty little liars, Sick,Dylan Sprouse etc.

 Hey everyone so I know its been a while since I posted a blog, but I promise I will sooon! Ive been so busy with college and its insanely stressful but I will write all about it eventually :) anyways here is a quick video I just posted!

How to: Green Smoothie

Eating healthy is super important, for your body and mind! But we all know that it isn't to easy and a reasonable goal to take out all the fast food and bad things that we put into our bodies. So I suggest a different approach, instead of taking out all these foods, instead I suggest to ADD things to your diet to make yourself feel SO MUCH BETTER. Green smoothies are great because you can drink them for breakfast, and on the go which is great, and still get all the nutrients and vitamins that you need. Also, there easy to make!

Here is a recipe that I use to make a FABULOUS green smoothie!

Ingredients:

3 kale leaves
1/2 apple
1 cup coconut milk
1 tbsp. cinnamon
1/2 cup pine apple
water ( optional)

I made a video showing how I use these ingredients to make an amazing smoothie that  tastes great and is also great for you! I hope you enjoy!

Green Smoothie Video: http://youtu.be/3NLz-9YvA0I

School Bag Organization Tips

Although School has already started for many, for others it either hasn't started, or they are not looking forward to the messy papers and flying pencils in their school bag. Weather you use a backpack, tote, or cross body bag, backpack organization is a must to stay sane during the long year ahead! That's where I come in. I am here to give you some ideas for things to keep in your school bag, and also show you some great tips to keep it organized.

Things to keep in your school bag:

Now although it is pretty obvious that your keep SCHOOL SUPPLIES in your school bag, their are specific things that  I do to keep my bag a bit more organized. Instead of using a binder  I like to use folders and notebooks for two reasons. 1) its a lot less heavier on my shoulders, and 2) It keeps me organized! Keeping all my papers, syllabuses and such in the folder for that class really helps me stay organized and ready for school.

I think its also good to always carry a planner in your back to school bag. Its a great way to stay organized through out your...LIFE! haha But seriously, everything you have going on you can organize out in your planner so that way you know what your doing today, tomorrow, what days your free, when your next appointment ect.

To see the rest of the items I carry in my back to school bag, check out my video! : http://youtu.be/uEwj6EhX484

TIPS FOR ORGANIZATION:

1) Always try to put your papers in the folder for that specific class, but a way to be even more organized is to put one side of the folder all your handouts and work you got back , and then the other side to put all the papers that have yet to be turned in.

2) Make a to do list! This will help you stay organized inside your own head. Maybe get a composition notebook which is what I am using for school. List out things you have to get down and do it in a way that will help you personally because everyone thinks differently.

3) Prioritize your classes. Figure out which class is that harder one and make sure you put in the amount of study time for each class. So if your math class is way harder then your English class, then dedicated more time towards the math class so that way you can feel like both are on good terms!

4) Highlight your notes in different colors. This will help you stay organized if you say put yellow in the " MUST REMEMERS" and pink as the " DONT FORGETS" etc. Which ever way best fits you!

If you would like more tips let me know and  I will make a part two!

Email me if you have any blog request : sadieallard@gmail.com

Short Blog! My Healthy shopping

Recently I have decided to eat 10 million times healthier! I had gotten to a place where I notice how bad my eating habbits were... follow me shopping for healthy food!

Breakups: My life Part 2

This is the 2nd part to my Breakups: My life.

When I met him in that coffee shop  I felt as if I couldn't remember all the terrible things that happened between me and him. The fact that he was my first made me connected to him on a certain level, but I thought I could get over that part. Right when I saw him again, that's all  I could think about. I had given him something so special... to a piece of shit guy  I might add.

While we talked he apologized for all the lies he had told to me. He said he had matured and that he had learned from our relationship ending. I walked right into more of his lies, as embaressing as it is to say, I believed him. After  I left the coffee shop I felt like I needed more. Just talking through things wasn't enough. I contacted him and skipping to the actual stuff, we got back together about a month later.

But the lies hadn't stopped. He never told his parents that we got back together like he said he had. He talked to ANOTHER girl while we were together. The lies had... I wanted to say gotten worse but I don't think any lie justifys as an "okay lie to tell". I found all of this out but I still chose to stay with him.  I got to a bad place though where my depression was starting to come back very badly. It was such a toxic relationship and  I was letting it control me.

I started feeling so badly about myself that  I felt like the relationship was the only "good thing" that I had, although that was far from true. He became very judgmental and would talk down to me and make me feel little. He started to get on me for things that I did and it almost seemed that he wanted me to change everything about myself. As you guys can tell, we broke up again for the 2nd time.

Dealing with this breakup: It has been so different then the last breakup. I have felt so much more confident in myself this time,  I finally realize that I deserve better and that I WILL HAVE better. Someone who treats me the way I want to be treated, the right way. And most importantly someone who is honest with me. Ive probably only cried twice in the last two months and it feels good to know that he is a piece of shit (mind my language). Instead of missing him, I am happy and  I feel that he treated me that way due to the problems in his own life. He has something wrong with him and its NOT me. I am now focusing on myself and keeping myself happy and healthy. I am my first priority.

Anyone out there in a toxic relationship, or going through a breakup,  I want you to know that you are so important and its not selfish or bad to put yourself first. There is only one you and you need to FOCUS on what's important. The person your with doesn't define you and doesn't control you. Do what makes you happy and feels good, and the rest will fall into place.

xoxoxo

Link to my breakup video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=63nuqDNom5Q

Breakups : My life Part 1

Dealing with a breakup is hard....so hard. I had to deal with a breakup twice with the same person, and that was very interesting. The first time we broke up, it was mainly because we argued a lot, and he lied to me so many times.  I got to a point where  I didn't trust him at all, and the things he did made me feel so much anger towards him constantly. We would argue so much and  I found myself looking for reasons to get mad at him, just to get back at him for the things he had done to me.

When we first dated he had lied to me about so many things in his life. I was a Junior in high school, and we went to different schools but met through a volunteering program. He started telling me how he was on the football team, that he was from new York, and that he slept with a numerous number of girls (which btw was NOT attractive).

These little things that he told me, were so simple that at the time I didn't know he was lying. Then a couple months after we were talking, he told me that he had a brain tumor. I didn't know what to think of this at the time because 1)who would lie about something like that and 2) if I were to accuse him of lying and he was telling the truth, that would look terrible on my part. So for our whole relationship I was thinking that this was true (it still disgust me).  The list of things he lied about was endless.

I remember one time that my grandpa had gotten in a car accident, and I was so hurt sad and scared for my grandpa. I really had trusted this boy at the time so I told him what happened. He claimed that he was in the hospital at the time but that he was going to ask his nurse if my grandpa was staying at the same hospital. He LIED straight to my face, when I was most vulnerable. I don't understand how anyone could do that.Yes, I bet your wondering why I would be stupid enough to stay with him, but  I didn't find out that this was all a lie until the day after we broke up. Definetely not my favorite memory.

Dealing with the Breakup:  Well when I was having to deal with this breakup, it was difficult because someone that I had loved and cared for so much,  someone I had told everything to, someone I thought  I could trust had lied to me about everything. Our whole relationship was a lie. At first I pretended as if it never happened. The first 2 weeks of being broken up I basically talked to other guys and didn't think about it at all. Then one day it decided to hit me...hard.

I realized that this guy was not in my life anymore. Although it was a good thing that we weren't together anymore, it was so crazy to think about what all has happened. I have depression, it runs in my family, so dealing with something like this hit me 10 times harder then I thought it would. I would cry a lot at night because I didn't understand. I didn't understand how someone who claimed to love me so much could lie to me about everything, call me names and treat me so negatively.

Then one day it got better. I started to realize that I was going to be okay. But then I got to a point where I  didn't just want to be "okay"... I wanted to be happy again. I saw my ex boyfriend 8 months later walking downtown randomly and I considered this a "sign" that we had unfinished business. I contacted his mother and set up a time to meet up with him and talking. Mind you that for 8 months he never tried to contact me after we broke up.

We met up and I started to have feelings for him again. Or at least I thought  I did.

Let me know if you guys want to know the rest. Part 2 will be up soon.

How to deal with a breakup : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=63nuqDNom5Q